Die geheimen Tagebücher von einer verderbten Existenz

Behind these gates you will hear my thoughts screaming like nerves under the sun and feel my emotion laughing to the empty ether.
Welcome Dear Wanderer, make yourself at home.
The road is long and tortuous and I hope you enjoy yourself.

Fraternally Yours,
Poison Creeper

Wednesday, 2 September 2015

Sweden and my short isolation retreat

I landed in Copenhagen yesterday after a 3 hours delay (thank you Ryanair) and caught the train to Bromölla in the Skåne region in south of Sweden.

The weather and temperature are warmer than the UK although overcast. A couple of hours journey; I finally reached my destination and saw my friend that I hadn't seen in 2 years.

We had dinner and chatted for hours; it was nice to be able to do it face to face after 2 years of regular non-fb chats. 

This morning I went with her to school.
The sun is shining and weather is warm and dry.I have been trying to get closer to the lake but the factories block access to the shores, from that point at least.

I will try and get to the shores and snap some pictures.

Lunch at the Thai restaurant and then a walk around town, tonight we are going to visit another friend and his family, 3 kids + one on the way, partner and his 60 year old mother that speaks English,  thank God. But there will be drinking, Swedish style, I foresee a hangover tomorrow.

Will post more snippet later, I am trying to take  pictures with my DSLR instead of using my phone so more pics when I get back to UK.

Crossing the border Denmark/SwedenRandom people at Copenhagen Airport
And Carriage 23 to take me 'home'

Sunday, 30 August 2015

Who Killed Emiliano Zapata

Born on August 8, 1879, Anenecuilco, Mexico, Emiliano Zapata was a Mexican revolutionary and advocate of agrarianism who fought in guerrilla actions during the Mexican Revolution. He formed and commanded the Liberation Army of the South, an important revolutionary brigade, and his followers were known as Zapatistas. Zapata died on April 10, 1919.

Early Years

Born on August 8, 1879, Emiliano Zapata was orphaned at the age of 17. A revolutionary from an early age, in 1897 he was arrested because he took part in a protest by the peasants of his village against the hacienda (plantation) that had appropriated their lands. After he was pardoned, he continued to agitate among the peasants, and because of his rabble-rousing, he was subsequently drafted into the Mexican army. After serving for only six months, Zapata was discharged to a landowner to train his horses in Mexico City. In 1909 his leadership skills were already well known, and he was summoned to his village of birth, Anenecuilco, where he was elected as the village’s council board president.

Early Agrarian Battles

A man of the people, Emiliano Zapata became a leading figure in Anenecuilco, where his family had lived for many generations, and he became involved in the struggles of the local peasant farmers. There were many conflicts between villagers and landowners over the continual theft of village land, and in one instance, the landowners set an entire village on fire in response to peasant protests. Zapata managed to oversee the return of the land from some haciendas peacefully, but it was an ongoing struggle. At one point, after failed negotiations, Zapata and a group of peasants occupied by force the land that had been appropriated by the haciendas and distributed it among themselves.

During this time, and for many years to follow, Zapata continued to faithfully campaign for the rights of the villagers, using ancient title deeds to establish their claims to disputed land, and then pressuring the governor of the region to act. Finally, in the face of the glacial pace of governmental response and the clear favoritism toward the wealthy plantation owners, Zapata started to use force, simply taking over the disputed land and distributing it as he saw fit.

The Revolution Begins

Around this time, Mexican president Porfirio Díaz was being threatened by the candidacy of Francisco Madero, who had lost the 1910 election to Díaz but had subsequently fled the country, declared himself president and then returned to confront Díaz.

In Madero, Zapata saw an opportunity to promote land reform in Mexico, and he made a quiet alliance with Madero. Zapata was wary about Madero, but he cooperated once Madero made promises about land reform, the only issue Zapata truly cared about.

In 1910, Zapata joined Madero’s campaign against President Díaz, taking on an important role as the general of the Ejército Libertador del Sur (Liberation Army of the South). Zapata’s army captured Cuautla after a six-day battle in May 1911, a clear indication that Díaz’s grasp on power was tenuous at best. The battle was described as "six of the most terrible days of battle in the whole Revolution,” and it was clearly a clarion call to the Zapatistas. When Díaz’s men withdrew, Zapata’s forces took control of the town. This defeat, paired with defeat at the First Battle of Ciudad Juárez at the hands of Pancho Villa and Pascual Orozco, led Díaz to determine that his time was up. A week later, he resigned and headed to Europe, leaving behind a provisional president.

Francisco Madero entered Mexico City in victory, and Zapata met him there to ask him to exert pressure on the provisional president to return misappropriated land to its original landowners, again returning to the cause most deeply embedded in his heart.

Madero insisted on the disarmament of Zapata’s guerrillas and offered Zapata money to buy land if he could ensure the disarmament. Zapata rejected the offer but began to disarm his forces regardless. He soon stopped the process, however, when the provisional government sent the military to confront the guerrillas.

The Revolution Deepens: The Plan of Ayala

Following Zapata’s rebuff of Madero’s offer, relations between the two soured, and in the summer of 1911, Madero appointed a governor who supported plantation owners’ rights over those of the peasant farmers, angering Zapata. Attempts at compromise between the two fell flat in November 1911, days after Madero became president of Mexico, and Zapata fled to the mountains.

Disillusioned with Madero’s stances on land ownership and his post-revolutionary stances generally, Zapata prepared the Plan of Ayala, which declared Madero incapable of fulfilling the initial and ongoing goals of the revolution.

With the Plan of Ayala, the Revolution was renewed, this time with Madero in its sights instead of Díaz. The Plan promised to appoint a provisional president until there could be legitimate elections and pledged to buy back a third of the (stolen) land area held by the haciendas and return it to the farmers. Any hacienda that refused to accept this plan would have their lands taken, without recompense. Zapata also adopted the slogan "Tierra y Libertad" ("Land and Liberty").

With Zapata’s Revolution an ongoing event, in 1913 General Victoriano Huerta assassinated Francisco Madero and took control of the country. Huerta soon approached Zapata, offering to unite their troops, but Zapata rejected Huerta's offer.

This prevented Huerta from sending his troops to confront the guerrillas of the north, who, under the direction of Venustiano Carranza, had organized a new army, led by Pancho Villa, to defeat him. Huerta was then forced to leave the country in July 1914.

source: http://www.biography.com/people/emiliano-zapata-9540356

Viva Zapata! 1952: http://vhd.me/qTwu

American Grindhouse Documentary

The salacious and uproarious AMERICAN GRINDHOUSE explores the hidden history of the exploitation film, those popular purveyors of cheap sex and violence which leapt from the tents of carnie sideshows into features like FREAKS, and spawned diverse offshoots including scare films, horror, sexploitation and roughies. Featuring interviews with famous grindhouse directors and fanatics, this is the most comprehensive documentary ever made on these masterpieces of the lowbrow.


"The ways of love are all the same, whether infantile, childish, sexual, tender, sadistic, erotic, or whispered. It's simply a question of understanding, of understanding oneself above all: in bed, in broad daylight, madly or not at all, in shadow, in sunlight, in despair or at table. Otherwise, it's no use. Any of it. And the little time we have left for living, while we're still alive, in other words capable of giving pleasure, and the little time we have left for thinking (or pretending to) in this vast, mindless cacophony that daily life has become, ineluctable, uncontrollable, and truly unacceptable to any civilized person, we must make absolutely certain that we share."

Francoise Sagan "Des bleux a l'ame (Scars on the soul)

Friday, 28 August 2015

Vladimir Mayakovsky

I suddenly smeared the weekday map

splashing paint from a glass;

On a plate of aspic

I revealed

the ocean’s slanted cheek.

On the scales of a tin fish

I read the summons of new lips.

And you

could you perform

a nocturne on a drainpipe flute?

Monday, 22 April 2013

From shore to shore

I finally reach the shores of Italy and black clouds were awaiting for me.
My hope of being able to enjoy some days in the sun of my hometown have vanished quickly when I exit the airport and looked outside. As if the search for pot in my bags hadn't been enough to welcome me on the peninsula.

Glad to see my parents and my brother, who is actually a lot better than I thought.
Nannies and Aunties are as good as they can be but at least they are not worse.

I have been reading a lot of Ezra Pound, John Dee & Kelly, Birogo and Crowley these days and immersed myself in dark ambient and black metal music, it somehow fit the weather. Inside and outside.

I am quite serene and looking forward the Psychic TV gig on friday and catching up with some good friends. I will be bringing one with me, armed with a one-way ticket to London.

I need some adventure and as soon as the working rythm has adjusted itself, I will have to start organising for sweden and the Norbergfest.
I will be opening the festival with one hour of dark ambient/drone/death industrial. This is making me very excited and scared too. I suggest you all to google "mimerlaven" in Norberg to see the size of the "venue" of the festival.

On completely different note, yes, I am indeed starting to work again at my old job.
I can't see any reason to have a "serious" job, day time and a job that requires me to blend in with a dull society made of white collars, money-focussed individuals and empty hearts.
Let's just be fair: those are not my people.

It also looks like an old chapter of my life has finally reached its ending, so far it seems to be a happy ending which will lead us to a beginning of a new Aeon.
An hatchet has been buried and a new page has been has been started.
I still have to see her and talk to her and catch up with 4 (almost 5) years of silence, grudge and remorse.
It still feels weird but I am glad it happened.

As for the Dj sets I have now been invited to play at Rosa Decidua II on the same night of Apocalypse Stinks, still in Slimelight.

Double Creeper Feature Show on the 11th of May @Electrowerkz.

From Neofolk and industrial to PostPunk, Goth and coldwave. If i had the chance to have another set I'd make id Doom, Stoner and Noise; it would complete the range of genres I oscillate to/from.

Some new people in my life but the old ghost is still there, let's not talk about the heart.